get my head on straight. now.

i need to stop doing this ^^^^


but i'm scared i guess.
bless
cami

the secret of happiness is...

The Lord and his gospel.

this morning was amazing. i woke up bright and early one morning to go the temple with two of my greatest best friends. His love was so strong in there i wanted to cry. we went with a friend in mind, we were fasting for her, and even had her name put on the prayer list. later that day, in seminary, a cute boy got up and shared his testimony of fasting. earlier in the week he had told me that was one thing he had no testimony of. as he shared his new found testimony of fasting, in that moment i could feel myself gaining my own testimony of the power of fasting and i started to cry. i was so grateful for that boy and his testimony. and i'm so grateful for my Heavenly Father giving me that experience while i was having a fast of my own. i love Him.

bless you

cami.

honesty.

i've been trying to figure out my style.
not like fashion style, but what is it about something that draws me to it.
what is my style in life?
i've wondered what it is about a certain peice of art that draws me to it
or a song, why i could listen to it over and over for days and still love it
or have you even seen someone from a distance and admired them. what was admirable in your eyes without knowing them?

for me: i love honest.

when i see art full of honesty; i see the artists soul. i see every-bit of who that person is, and what they feel. i see exactly what they want me to see.
i love when i see art that is bursting with emotion
honest emotion.
you can tell the artist poured their whole heart and entire soul into the image as a whole


when i hear a song full of honesty; i see the musicians soul, i see what has hurt them or blessed them. i love to hear a song that is an honest emotional.
i love the lyrics people write when they've realized something life changing.
they pour out their heart to you in music.
i love how you could listen to that song for days on-end and always feel that honesty.


i love when you can see someone who is just simply themselves
they don't need to follow trends, friends, or patterns to prove themselves.
you can just tell everything they do, they do because it's them.
there is something different that stands out about them.
those people are easier for me to trust.
when i know i can trust someone, i feel the relationship just got a whole lot more beautiful.


i think life is about the simple things. things you can do that show you really care about something.
to expose yourself in an honest way is risky, it makes you feel vulnerable.
but only at first.
i think if we did it more often, we would be happier.
it's healthy to pour your heart out into something or someone. :)

honest emotion is beautiful.
honest expression is beautiful.
honesty is the most beautiful attribute you could wish to have labeled on you.
at least to me it is

i love you guys :)
bless
cami.

let me just get this off my chest.

i'm starting to lose people.

some good friends i thought i'd have.

i'm starting to get impatient

after a full year and a half of this.

i'm starting to snap

from dealing with inconsiderate-ness

but i'm turning to God.

the Lord is always on my side

He's always a best friend

i love Him :)

bless. cami

Don't let the sadness from the past, or the fear of the future rob the happiness of the present.

 

             subject 1: sadness; he left on his mission mad at me. we were in love for 2 years and now we don't talk, and now we aren't even friends. it's a relief to me he's gone and i don't have to deal with it, but 2 years goes fast. i guess it's whatever. but it's still so sad to me.

             subject 2: fear; liked him since i was 11, except he was never very nice to me. he found it funny to make me sad. he is the reason subject 1 left mad at me. he comes home from his mission in 3 weeks, and he's expecting to date me. i can't give in. i'm extra nervous and really scared.

             subject 3: happiness; always makes me smile and laugh. we always talk for hours and hours and never even notice the time pass. he's super nice, and super great. i like him, and hope subject 2 doesn't ruin this one also. i won't give up. he makes me so happy.





1,2,3. all phasing me right now.

nightmares,

nightmares,

dreams come true




1. doesn't want to know me
2. ruins everything.
3. is a keeper




third time's a charm (keep your fingers crossed)
bless.

cami :)

Today, Tomorrow, Yesterday, Forever

entertainment

learn something incredible

"Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known"

                                                                      -Sagan

i found some interesting facts i thought i would share with you :) enjoy

-Armadillos have four babies at a time and they are always all the same sex

-Dogs and cats, like humans, are either right or left handed (paw).

-Fortune cookies were actually invented in America (not China), in 1918, by Charles Jung

-A snail can sleep for three years
-The people in Bali only have one of four names: Wayan, Made, Nyoman, and Ketut
-Your thumb is the same length as your nose
-Horses can't vomit and pigs can't look up in the sky
-Adding a drop of olive oil and lemon juice to an ice cube then running it over your face gives you better results than some expensive skin care products.
-Not only the fur of the tiger is striped but also its skin
-Venus is the only planet that rotates clockwise
-Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.
-SCUBA divers cannot pass gas at depths of 33 feet or below
-The Pope's been known to wear red Prada shoes.
-Coco Chanel started the trend for sun tans in 1923 when she got accidentally burnt on a cruise.
-The egg came first.
-The Himalayas cover one-tenth of the Earth's surface.
-The Mona Lisa has no eyebrows which makes her emotion hard to determine.
-Walt Disney was afraid of mice.
-Its impossible to smoke oneself to death with weed. You won't be able to retain enough motor control and consciousness to do so after such a large amount.
-Every drop of seawater contains approximately 1 billion gold atoms.
-Just about 3 people are born every second
-Happy Birthday (the song) is copyrighted.
-The largest living thing on the face of the Earth is a mushroom underground in Oregon, it measures three and a half miles in diameter.
-Plastic lawn flamingos outnumber real flamingos in the U.S.A.
-The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets. :) (phineas and ferb...)
-Nondairy creamer is flammable.
-If you can see a rainbow you must have your back to the sun.
-America once issued a 5-cent bill.
-It is possible for any American citizen to give whatever name he or she chooses to any unnamed mountain or hill in the United States.
-King Henry III of France, Louis XVI of France and Napoleon all suffered from ailurophobia--fear of cats.
-The ampersand (&) was the last letter of the Latin alphabet

-Men can read smaller print than women

-The citrus soda 7-UP was created in 1929; '7' was selected because the original containers were 7 ounces. 'UP' indicated the direction of the bubbles

-Percentage of Africa that is wilderness--28%. Percentage of North America that is wilderness--38%.

-Because radio waves travel at 186,000 miles per second and sound waves saunter at 700 miles per hour, a broadcast voice can be heard sooner 13,000 miles away than it can be heard at the back of the room in which it originated

-Average number of days a German goes without washing his underwear: 7.
-Iceland consumes more Coca-Cola per capita than any other nation.
-A duck's quack doesn't echo, and no one knows why.
-Each king in a deck of playing cards represents a great king from history. Spades--King David, Clubs--Alexander the Great, Hearts--Charlemagne and Diamonds--Julius Caesar.
-There are only four words in the English language which end in '-dous': tremendous, horrendous, stupendous, and hazardous
-More than 2500 left handed people are killed every year from using right handed products
-The X's that people sometimes put at the end of letters or notes to mean a kiss, actually started back in the 1000's when Lords would sign their names at the end of documents to other important people. It was originally a cross that they would kiss after signing to signify that they were faithful to God and their King. Over the years though, it slanted into the X.
-In 37% of Americans, the thirst mechanism is so weak that it is often mistaken for hunger. also 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated.
-A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death.
-Polar bears are left-handed.
-Guinness Book Of Records holds the record for being the book most stolen from Public Libraries.
-Charlie Chaplin won third place in a Charlie Chaplin look alike contest

have a great day :)

bless

-cami

my countdown.

10

Favorite Places To Be:

- snuggled in bed

- driving around in my car

- an art museum

- in a history classroom (atwood)

- seminary

- the TEMPLE

- at a friends house

- a sales rack

- the canyon

- Stewart falls.

 

9

‘Weird’ Things About You:

- my teeth are too big for my mouth.

- my dad and my grandpa were bodybuilders; thus i inherited their muscles :)

- i loath elbows.

- i played against the Super Smash Bros. world champion for a whole evening.

- my eyebrows sometimes decide to bald? i have never understood it.

- i love to deep clean things; but usually only at other peoples homes

- i recently picked up knitting as a hobby.

- i am the only girl in my family

- i once had a cyst in my wrist

8

New Year Resolutions:

- read scriptures daily (check)

- make some good friends (check)

- go to the temple weekly (check)

- write in my journal regularly (check)

- find a hobby (check)

- get asked out on a date (check)

- bear my testimony (check)

- enjoy foot massages (check)

7

Things I’m Thinking Of:

- what to write.

- babysitting today

- him :)

- i need to do my scripture study

- i'm sick of this cold i have

- it's cold in my room

- my new best friend

6

Things You’re Wearing Right Now: 

- white velvet jacket

- black stretchy pants

- my plastic shirt

- a french braid

- TOMS

-makeup

5

Things I’m Worried about:

- missing school today

- tanna

- finding a new job

- my synthesis essay for english

-  if i have a sinus infection or not?

4

Things On My Floor Right Now:

- my favorite beanie

- my new cool purse

- my longboard

- my whole closet

3

Things I Want To Do Today:

- hang out with my favorite new friends.

- maybe take another shower?

- paint my nails

2
Things I’ll Reveal: 

- i'm the happiest i've been in all my life.

- i'm the most scared i've been in all my life.

1

Secret i'll share.

-my younger brother has kissed more people than i have.

it makes me sick...

 

i'm really bugged today. 

this is why:

i try really hard to make myself someone who people are willing to talk to.

i try really hard to show people i don't judge. 

i try really hard to show people i love them no matter what is going on in their lives.

but one thing that really bugs me is when a friendship has reached 

a certain point, and they still feel like they have to keep things from me because quote 

"i'm mormon and i will judge them." 

it makes me sick.

i can't tell you how often it happens tho!
it honestly breaks my heart when some one feels they can't trust me.

i have that feeling right now, 

and yesterday. 

anyway i just wanted to get that out. 

it guess it makes me feel better to write...? :)

bless

-cami

"one-of-a-kind" kind of person

i'm one of a kind. i found out this weekend that i sleep talk :) it was an interesting experience after hearing about it. i freaked my two best friends out as they took me home. i didn't have a thought process, i just talked and talked and talked. and i called my favorite person and we talked on the phone for over two hours. i don't remember hardly any of the conversation which is interesting. when we talked today we had a good laugh over the things i said the night before. he is so patient with me it's wonderful. i always thank him for it. he told me all about what we talked about and said he thought it was a lovely chat. he told me he was sorry i couldn't remember it. he told me he knew i was asleep but he stayed on the phone because it made me feel better. the parts i do remember make me smile. as i think back to try and figure out how we got on those topics it makes me laugh even harder. i'll never forget this night, even though i have hardly any memory of it. i'm a one-of-a-kind kind of person, it's official. :)
bless
cami

words of wisdom.