it has come to this.

all i need in life anymore is


1. netflix
2. puzzles
3. a plane ticket outta here

so there's this guy

and the way he smiles makes me smile.
and the sound of his voice makes my heart skip a beat.
and when i see him i get butterflies.

:)

after all this time?

i still:

-fall every time i see him.

-blush at any mention of him.

-get butterflies thinking of him.

-see there's a meaning to all this.

and i still know i love him.

after love at first sight, and many years of heartbreak, and many years of patience.

he entered my life again, and what began was 

wonderful, perfect, unbelievable happiness.

hope, prayers

The Lord is always on our side, and always cheering us along
sometimes we are too angry or ignorant to see it
but He'll always be there and He, and everyone around us, always want us to come back to Him.
and if not for Him, then for the people around us it matters to.

hot cross buns.

i feel light, i feel happy. i feel hopeful.
i feel like my life is finally happening and it's EVERYTHING I've been waiting for.

i feel like there are a million words floating around in my head, but none of them are right.

i feel all the beauty around me getting more vibrant as
every second takes me closer. 
i fell like finally it's okay, and it really was all for a reason. i'm grateful.

i'm living now,
and taking life fully by the reins and heading in head first.
there's an interesting spirit about me now, that little girl inside me is growing up and becoming a real woman now. a real woman with a lot of spirit in her. now i'm always smiling at new and beautiful opportunities that become the music around me.

i want to run around and tell the whole world.
i want to kiss him on the mouth and have him be forever mine.

my future with him is finally more bright than my past.
he's so real 
and even more wonderfully perfect than i ever thought. he's got this smile that makes me feel innocent and young again. and i blush every time.
he reminds me of better days, of days i forgot i missed.

oh boy...
8 years of wishful thinking, and now it's come to this
WOOOOOT

bless you,
cami :)

david

i saw him,
he has GREAT HAIR

wooot!!!

i love my chair
i love sitting in my chair with no one around me
i love sitting here and watching the busy students scurry by below me
i love to sit here and wonder what their lives are like
who they are
what they like to do
maybe even wonder if someone that just walked past me is just like me
maybe someone just walked by that will one day be a good friend of mine
right now they are all strangers
right now, sitting in my chair, i just wonder.
i try to look for familiar faces, maybe even someone i know
i want to see if David, that one cute college guy will ever walk by.
i like feeling this feeling of serenity.
everything around me at peace.
i like trying to be silent.
i like to try and make no noise.
even in my salmon pink striped shirt, and high wasted pink floral skirt, i want to try and blend in.
it's funny sitting here,
i'm not even around the books i love, but i'm in my corner doing what i love.
i want to figure people out
i want to know what these people below me are thinking right now
how they grew up
who their best friend is
are they married
are they happy.
i want to know what they are interested in doing.
i could sit here and make judgement about them based on their simple or loud appearance
but right now i'll just sit here and watch them, and feel a part of them.
and love them
i'll feel like they do, just trying to get by simply with what i got.
i'll blend in in that way.
and that's totally cool.

the sky was drunk.

testing, 1, 2, 3.

i'll miss him too.

when i open myself up to people, the next thing i do is cut them off.

i really hate that about myself.

i did that with this friend.

he's a true gem.

a nice kid.

a great friend.

he did a lot for me and i wish i would've done more for him.

i guess we all have those kind of regrets in life, you know?

anyway, i'm deciding to change. 

now when i open up, i'll stay close.

really close.

i don't want another person thinking i hate them.

sorry red.

love and blessings,

cami.

my favorite colors.

Painting my nails. 

(it's an obsession)

i've gone a little out of control lately with painting my nails, 

these are my favorite ones. 

bless.

1.buy me cameo

2. going incognito

3. masquerade belle

4.chocolate cake

5. braziliant

6.carnival

7.catwalk

8. solemate

9.foot loose

10. mint candy apple

11. shifting power

12. plumberry 

motive.

I came to win, 

to fight. 

To conquer, 

to thrive!

something that's been on my mind for a while:

i have serious commitment issues.


THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS:
1. i start to like the boy
2. i start to really like the boy
3. i start to get super FREAKED out by the boy.
4. i move on.

ahhhh,
whatevs.