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guys i met this guy.
and i can't get him off my mind

so much that im actually blogging about it....
haha i know it's been a while.

but real talk,
he's amazing.

and a cutie.
and my favorite :)

hehe :)
if today is tuesday, when is "next tuesday"?
Travis says: it is the tuesday after valentines day (2/14)
i say: it is valentines day.

we want your answer and also your definition of what THIS tuesday means.

thank you
travis and cami


as i was creeping about the internet looking at pictures of james dean
i ultimately decided he's the best looking man that ever lived.
and not only was he good looking, he was bad A, girls.

i also figured out why he's sooo dreamy.
he's literally a PERFECT mix of James Franco, and Channing Tatum, with a tiny Ryan Gosling thrown in there.


"There is a skinny woman inside me trying to get out...I can usually shut the bitch up with cookies"

today at lunch i...

charted my love life action plan.
step one: complete
step two: in progress

whoop cami!

moving right along eh?

cuddled? check.
dates? check.
kiss? pending request.

this only happens in the movies ladies

i saw a man. his perfection in beauty will not soon be forgotten by my heart, nor my mind.
as i describe him, you need to envision this beauty in your mind in the most flawless, perfect way imaginable.

lets begin.

about 6'3, long long torso.
skinny/slender/lean, but with broad shoulders and the most beautiful defined back muscles (again note the long torso).
white fitted cotton t-shirt, with dark wash slim jeans. zippers on the pockets (ya i looked)

oh, and his HAIR
you know that move men do that makes us ladies swoon?
you know, when they run their fingers thru their long wavy hair?
ya, he did that. and you better believe i swooned.

now imagine the most perfect golden blonde, with natural caramel highlights. with an underlying dark tone, and almost even a little greasy looking.
nothing short of perfection. am i right?

then, he turned and looked at me
i lost consciousness.
chiseled roman nose, bright gorgeous green eyes
dark brows
rugged beard.
holy hell.
is anyone else drooling?

here's the kicker tho, as he walked by he obviously saw i was falling in love with him,
and he so kindly shot me one of his sparkly white crooked smiles.
i must see him again.

if any of you see this man
before you pursue,
please keep in mind,
i saw him first.


saturday night

what if he's just too good to be true?

wishing to find my breaking point.

there are times in your life when you just feel like breaking
you feel like breaking would be the release to all the angst built up in you
like the emotions would somehow just race out of your chest and be gone forever.
usually when you feel like breaking away, you already feel completly broken.

mostly, yes, I'm mostly broken, but not yet completely.
mostly you start to feel like you're already broken when you've started to mend.
i need to start that mend.
i need to know i've broken all i can and i can finally start to heal
i don't want to sit here, with open wounds, knowing i haven't even had the worst of it
awaiting my nightmare
just crying over the horror i know will come.

but it wont come.
it's not coming!!
why must it be delayed!
i want it to all be over
and beautiful, once again.


first rule to happiness:
free your heart

thought of the day

Radiohead is neither music nor noise
it's ART